I don't want to travel the world. I just want to do my best to live happily where I came from. So many people feel smothered in this tiny town, but I feel free. The only time I'm afraid is when I am alone, without my family and friends. College scares me terribly. I'm so afraid that while I am out learning my family will be growing old and my friends will be growing up. I am too scared to loose anyone because I was away. I'm afraid of severed ties. I fear the inevitable. I don't want to lose anyone. You are in my life for a reason. A very good reason, and I love you with all of my heart. I don't want to lose anything. I don't want to lose closeness to possibly gain the trust of a stranger. I don't want to talk about the future. It scares me and seems so bleak. What scares me the most is that it will be here before I blink.