Single for the first time in a long time. And I actually kinda like it.
Going on dates is always fun, but to me a relationship was something I always craved. It almost felt like I needed to be in one or else I wasn't complete. After getting out of my last serious relationship, I'm realizing more than ever that I don't NEED a man to be happy. I've struggled for so long not loving myself, that all I attracted was men who didn't love me like I wanted them to. It hit me like a ton of bricks these last few weeks that I need to love myself first; and truly love myself. I've struggled with depression for about 5 years now and I've always viewed myself in a very negative way. Now that I am single I'm starting to love myself a lot more than I think I ever have. It's great! I go to the gym now, I'm eating healthier, I'm spoiling myself, and best of all I'm making choices that influence my happiness rather than someone else's. If Prince Charming comes to me great, if not I'll still be okay. So to anyone out there who feels alone, or feels like they need to have a man to be happy; you don't. I promise you. Focus on yourself. Make yourself happy. And if you're happy and a great guy comes along then good for you! But always, always, know your worth because for a minute there; I forgot mine.