That's when I realized he believed himself. He did believe his own words. That he didn't deserve that, that it was too risky for her to get attached to him. Of course he believed it.
He just couldn't have helped it, to fall in a trap that made him so desperately happy. So naively happy, and seeing his reflection in her eyes, and seeing how happy his mere presence could make her... God how he loved it and how deeply it hurt him.